This morning I had a meeting that caused me to have to rush
out of the house.
At the same time my wife was going to be packing up
everyone, Oscar, Vivian, Abram, Cleo, and herself to take Oscar to school.
They didn’t have to leave until later than I needed to
leave. As I was getting ready to go I
was trying to get everything ready that I could that needed to be ready to
ensure a smooth departure for them.
This strategy of mine proved to be anything but
helpful. I was far more disruptive than
productive.
As I walked out the door Abram was upset, Cleo was along for
the ride. Vivian was upset for not
getting to say goodbye in her way, and Oscar was busy doing his own thing.
As I walked out I was leaving the chaos that is a growing
family.
I got in the car and it was silent, very silent.
As I drove off I was waving to Vivian at the door.
As I turned to head to work I had a feeling of guilt. Here I was selfishly heading to do my thing
while my wife was carrying all the weight.
After realizing my own selfishness I also realized something
else. The car was so peaceful.
It made me think about how easy it is to know things in
contrast, chaos and peace. My experience
is that peace is deeper and more easily recognized when it was preceded with
chaos….
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