Wednesday, May 22, 2013

Abram



A couple of weeks ago Abram strutted into the room,
beating his chest.

Somehow he has all the qualities of me
that I secretly like best.

He is a born fighter,
a lover in the deepest sense.
He is an eater of all things,
life is not immune to this.

He wakes up and must cuddle with his mom,
must, for fifteen minutes minimum.

Then he is off in a flash not to be contained.

He loves to be outside, and he insists on doing what he wants.

He won’t be told what to do, or made to do anything that isn’t his idea.

If he is mad,
He is throw your head back, stomp your feet, kick, hit, bite, get away from me mad.

If he is happy,
He is all the brilliance and warmth of a bright burning son.

He is a doer, not a watcher.
Risk taker extraordinaire.
Fearless.

Maybe he isn’t the qualities that I secretly like best about myself,
Instead I think he has all the qualities I wish I had.

He lives completely in the moment, no apologies.

What a beautiful boy.


Wednesday, May 15, 2013

We're Having a Baby...



January 4th – we decided to get out of our own way.
January 5th – the anticipation began.
Sometime several weeks later we tested to see, three negatives.

Several weeks later we tested again, two positives.

The most incredible, most exciting journey begins anew.  I can’t begin to summon the words to describe how blessed and humbled I feel.
Our family will be growing from three beautiful children, to four.
I am amazed.

May 14th – we learned that we are having a little girl!!!!
I am speechless.
Two boys, two girls.  We couldn’t ask for more.

Tuesday, May 14, 2013

All Those Years Ago



All Those Years Ago – Yet it Seems Like Yesterday

Somewhere way back in time-
I extended to you my heart and my hand.
Miraculously you put yours in mine.

Ever so slowly our love turned from seed,
into a budding tree.

Oh yes, that’s it, I remember
it was 1993.

Over the years our journey has taken us so many places,
opened so many doors.
Miracles abundant,
I count them at least 4.

From the backseats of open trucks, exhausted.
Stacked on frozen chicken we rode to Mother Theresa’s…
Washing feet in the foot hills.
Burning busses near City Soleil,
it’s been our adventure all the way.

Playa Grande, Ricardo, fried fish and tostones, empenadas with the Presidente.
Hogar Luby, Chucho, guaguas, La Sierna, Nacional, and so many, so many more.
The Dominican Republic and Haiti were most generous to us.
Everyday a dream come true,
I could never forget all the places we went.

But there is one story, one journey that stands out the most.  Maybe it is because it was the very beginning of our new adventure.  But I think it is a perfect story that illustrates everything that I love about you.

We had just spent New Year’s Eve in Batey Libertad, it was an explosive night to say the least.  As we sat in the iglesia neither one of us knew what an amazing year we had ahead of us.  I was just worried about making it through the night.  But make it we did.

New Years Day we ventured into Santiago to continue our journey, this time our aim was Cadillo.  Except after we waited for what seemed to be hours, we learned that there weren’t any guaguas running to Juncalito that day.

It was still early and we decided that it was best that we go back to the North coast to maximize our remaining time.  After all, we had made a good effort, a really good effort to try and get to see Fella, but it just didn’t work out.

Back up North we went, we were lucky enough to catch the only guagua that was going to breakdown along the way.  But we finally made our way back to Cabarete and to Tedy’s place.  In the midst of paradise we went for dinner, except, for you paradise was incomplete.  Paradise doesn’t come so neatly packaged for you, it never has.  We couldn’t miss the chance to see Fella.

Back up early the next morning, back to Sosua…  Caribe tours (yes it does). Back to Santiago, back to the guagua station.  This time it seemed we were going to meet the same fate, no guaguas running.  Except we found one, after a wait…  Somehow this is what more closely approximates your paradise, running all about the country, no sure bets, no map, just the kindness of the country and its people.

Up in the mountains of Juncalito, wondering how crazy we are.  By we I mean (you).

We started the long, uphill walk.  Did I mention it was all uphill?

With one bottle of water we set off (it was like you were drinking for two people).

We three walked (only we didn’t know we were three).

A quarter mile in, our water gone, and you were done.  You were ready to turn around, now we’d made the appropriate effort.  Now we could re-trace our steps.

Except we didn’t, we just took one more, one more and then the next.

For my part I got two bags to carry. 

Mind you this was a walk that campesinos would laugh at us for struggling with.

Onward we went; we only knew we were getting closer when we ran into Negro.  Who was kind enough to tell us that Fella had gone to Santiago.

What?  Did he just tell us that the person we’d come all this way to see, was in the place we just came from?  Of course, only in La Republica.

Of course it doesn’t matter.  It will all work out, it always does.

Christian was kind enough to welcome us.  It was a good thing we brought dinner.

Dotti – Mami is coming back home, Christian kindly told us.  As always things work out.

Soon Willy and Fella were home, of course we ate again.

As we pulled the brand new covers up that night, after passing on a night cap.

I couldn’t help but know in my soul, this is the definition of adventure and I am the luckiest man to have ever lived to share it with you.





 

Empty




The calendar marks another day,
another day to proclaim that which cannot be properly proclaimed.

Happy Mother’s Day –
What gift could be gift enough to thank you for revealing to me that miracles are real?
What could I do to honor you sufficiently, to let you know that I am forever indebted to you, endlessly.
You being a mother, means that I am a father, and together we are a family.
By this very fact my life is abundantly full, yet my hands are empty to find anything that is worthy of saying thank you.

Your Birthday –
Your birthday marks the day that my life's course was forever altered,
instead of staggering aimlessly, your birth set the trajectory of my life.
Without you in this world, I wouldn’t know life.
My heart is full; my life is full, all because of you being here.
Yet my hands are once again empty, empty because there is no thing, no thing that is sufficient to say that I am Happy that today is your birthday.

All I have to offer you is me, all that I can do to honor all that you’ve given me…
Is giving you all of me, always and completely.

I know no other way, I will give you my every breath, today and every day.

Happy Mother’s Day and Happy Birthday!

Just know that in my heart I celebrate these days every day, because they are what give me life.

Will You Hold My Hand?

Last Sunday during our soccer game our daughter asked her older brother if he would hold her hand while they played, so that she could "run as fast as he does".

This is what happened, quite literally it took my breath away.

Here is to the moments that take your breath away, that remind you of all the good.

Those are the moments life is made of.


He didn't think twice, he just took her hand and off they charged.  I am so proud of both of them.