I Never Intended to Push Music Here

I never intended to recommend music here, keep in mind this blog is as much for me as it is for anything.  A place to record thoughts, feelings, misunderstandings and understandings no matter how brief they might be. 

This space is a place to document my journey, in that it would be incomplete if music weren't included.

This song is amazing, I hope you enjoy it.

Fate

The other day my wife and I were talking about fate, soul mates, and matters of such depth.  It was an interesting conversation.  I have to say that I agree with Bob on this topic, his quote below captures my feelings quite well.  I hope you enjoy it.

Everyone that knows me, knows that I am of the fortunate, I found the one who completely turns my world around.  Thank you my love.

Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around. You tell them things that you’ve never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more. You share hopes for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you. When something wonderful happens, you can’t wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement. They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself. Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful. There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around. You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are. The things that seem insignificant to most people such as a note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever. Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it’s like being young again. Colours seem brighter and more brilliant. Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn’t exist at all. A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day’s work and always brings a smile to your face. In their presence, there’s no need for continuous conversation, but you find you’re quite content in just having them nearby. Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you. You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do. Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon. You open your heart knowing that there’s a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible. You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that’s so real it scares you. You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end. Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile. Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life.” 

-Bob Marley

Boxing Legend Emanuel Steward ~ Rest In Peace

Manny Steward was the voice behind my passion for watching and following boxing.  Today boxing marks the passing of another legend, thank you Manny for all the greatness that you were.

1st Steps - Abram 10/23/12

Last night my wife worked late.  She got home just as everyone was winding down for bed.

Everyone except our baby boy, he was still busy working.

When he heard the dogs bark he knew that she was home and he got so excited.  He was all smiles and a bundle of joy.  He was holding on to the bed and walking around.  When she walked up he decided to let go, then he took his first step, towards her.  He was so happy to see her he decided to take his first steps to see her.  I couldn't think of a better way to take a first step in this world!

Truly a moment we will never forget.  For good measure he did it again after being prompted.

Soon he won't stop, not that he does now.  What a great way to celebrate his first step!

Scarred

Scarred

The other day when we spoke you said I was scared,

scarred seems about right.

Because the things that give me fright,

you sweep under the rug in the dark of the night.

I wonder if I were to lift up that rug,

what monsters would I free?

Those are the truths that live within me,

it is under that burden that I strain.

I know better than to ever let those that I love close to that pain.

But you forget to remember what I’m feeling,

it’s the truth you forget,

that’s what I’m dealing.

For you it is all for good reason.

You’ve got too much at stake, it’s your heart that breaks.

Keep the rug swept up, put a lid on it tight.

But don’t forget the truth you told me.

Don’t expect me to forget, don’t chalk it up to my fear.

It was what I learned from you that got us here.

Scarred, a mark left, a wound healed.

A truth revealed.

Always Interrupting You

Time and all that needs done,

crash in collision.

Somehow there is always an innocent victim.

As I race through all that is in my mind, and in my hand,

I end up asking you to wait once again.

One second, one minute, asking you to wait…

Like somehow what I am thinking, or saying, or doing,

is a higher priority.

It isn’t, ultimately you are all that means everything to me.

We are so busy, almost too busy, it’s true.

That doesn’t mean there is no time to listen,

instead I end up interrupting you.

Asking you to go here, to do this…

All the while you’re pouring out what is inside of you.

My sons and daughter all too often are asked to wait,

until the next thing is done, and then…

Then we can play, then I can listen, then…

Then too often doesn’t come, and when it does it is gone so fast.

I recognize that all those other things can wait,

it is your dreams, the images in your mind, you’re stories to be told,

those are the things that fill my heart and soul,

those are the memories that forever last.

Catching Up

In some ways my blog hasn’t been updated as much as I’d like.  That being said I am hoping to get back to the blog more often, with better posts.

This past weekend we had  a lot going on, our final fall soccer game and a trip to the pumpkin patch.

The pictures tell the story better than I can. 

I can’t believe how big everyone is getting, we are one lucky family.

Back in the Day

I got these pictures from a buddy of mine.  They brought back some memories.

Words for Worry

Words for Worry, by Li Young-Lee

Another word for father is worry.

Worry boils the water
for tea in the middle of the night.

Worry trimmed the child’s nails before
singing him to sleep.

Another word for son is delight,
another word, hidden.

And another is One-Who-Goes-Away.
Yet another, One-Who-Returns.

So many words for son:
He-Dreams-for-All-Our-Sakes.
His-Play-Vouchsafes-Our-Winter-Share.
His-Dispersal-Wins-the-Birds.

But only one word for father.
And sometimes a man is both.
Which is to say sometimes a man
manifests mysteries beyond
his own understanding.

For instance, being the one and the many,
and the loneliness of either. Or

the living light we see by, we never see. Or

the sole word weighs
heavy as a various name.

And sleepless worry folds the laundry for tomorrow.
Tired worry wakes the child for school.

Orphan worry writes the note he hides
in the child’s lunch bag.
It begins, Dear Firefly....

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