Wednesday, February 8, 2012

Last Night


Last Night

Last night the phone rang
it was my sister and I knew
it couldnt be good.

Thats how things work in my family,
when the phone rings the news
is anything but good.

Last night the phone rang
it was my sister.

She wanted to talk about her father,
he abandoned her,
he was never a father to her,
she never felt his love.

Hes dying.

Before he goes I think
she wants to know that hes sorry,
sorry for never being there,
sorry for never loving her,
sorry for not bearing witness to the brilliance
in her life.
Sorry, sorry that he helped bring her into this world
but never held her hand as she traversed this journey.
Sorry for all the missed birthdays, holidays, celebrations,
sorry for never telling her how proud of her he is.

Before he goes I think
she wants to know.
She wants to know that he loved her.

It made me think of my dad……….
Hes dying and its a long story, the kind
I could never tell because I dont have the details.
I lived it but dont know it..

You see many years ago as my mom
was being beaten on the floor by my dad,
my sister took me from my high chair and
ran to the neighbors house to call the police…….

We left and he never looked back.
Last night my sister called, she is hurting.
Our dad is dying and we never knew him.

2 comments:

Anonymous said...

I have such an amazing brother.

Big Dogs Little Man said...

Thank you...