Monday, October 5, 2009

Fatigue IV, or at least I'd like to think so....

I just had the worst revelation... I realized that I am on cruise control or auto pilot, whatever you want to call it. I realized this on my way into work, I was trying to remember if I had told my wife how beautiful she is, before we left this morning to head into work. As soon as I had the thought I knew the answer, I hadn't. Then I tried to think about when the last time that I had complimented her was, and I didn't like how long it took me to find an example.

Conveniently I chalk all of this up to fatigue, trying to deceive myself that I actually have a good reason. When the truth is I haven't been mindfully engaged in the present like I should be.

2 comments:

Nunya said...

Happens to everyone. Don't beat yourself up about it. This is how you remind yourself of what to remember to do.

sky isn't falling said...

I think it is an overreaction on your part and I am sure that it is not nearly as dramatic or impacting as you have made it out to be.