Poised just beyond the shadows, there is a new dawn appearing. A new awakening is occuring, and with it a new perspective. For the last two weeks I have been basking in the glow of a miracle. With the birth of my daughter a wide range of emotions have been experienced. Namely just the thought of being entrusted with this precious and perfect life. I pray to never make a missed step to spoil her perfection.
The road isn't easy, challenge and obstacles abound. Only with and through the strength of our family does everything happen gracefully. It seems that in these moments I am truly able to take inventory of the strength and wonderful attributes of my wife. She is a silent warrior, she is the foundation from which our family is built. We are indeed in the best of hands.
I have said in the past that fatigue makes cowards of us all. This morning when my eyes openned I could taste the regret in my mouth. With gaps in my memory I knew that somewhere in the night I fell asleep, and that I missed a good share of the real work.
Around 10:30 our daughter wasn't wanting to fall asleep, so I was rocking her until her brother decided that he wanted to be upstairs, some time around 11:15 or so. I remember getting him and bringing him to our bed, I had given our daughter to my wife... That much I was sure of.
But I must have closed my eyes, because I didn't know how the story ended. It seems that I left my wife on watch as I dosed off, she finally got her to sleep just after 1:30 in the a.m.
I felt horrible, I left her flying solo, and she was already very tired when we went to bed. What a great partner I am, huh?
Redemption awaits us in the actions with which we respond to disappointment.
Tonight will be different, no more sleeping on my watch!!!!!
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