Accountability.....

This morning on my way to work.
Just after I had dropped off our daughter and youngest son.

You have to know, our daughter... She wasn't feeling the best.

But she pulled it together, went to school.  Just like we needed her to.
But she wasn't feeling great.

As I drove off, a beautiful little rainbow peaked behind her school building.
As I was driving a sense of peace came over me.
I knew she'd be just fine.

I stopped and got myself a coffee, as I often do on the rare occasion that I take them to school.

I kept driving to work, thinking about how she was feeling, thinking about how my wife is feeling, thinking about our baby girl who will be born any second now.

There is a lot of road construction on my way in.  My mind was all over the place.

I was listening to this song....


As I came up a hill I saw someone standing on the side of the road.  They had their arm out, like it was in one of those casts that have your arm sticking straight out to the side.

Then I realized it wasn't a cast.

It was a young woman with her arm out hitch-hiking.

I looked at her, made eye contact, and kept driving....

I was listening to the song The Ghost of Tom Joad....

I kept driving.

I wish I would have stopped and helped her, she looked like she could have used a little kindness.

The work continues..

Catching Up...

In the great whirlwind that is life, I’ve not written as much as I’d like.  This is an attempt of sorts to catch up.

We are waiting on the ledge of new beginnings; my wife is due on the 28^th with our next miracle.  Given that our youngest son was two weeks early, we’ve been anticipating that our baby girl would also come early, but such is not the case.  The anticipation has me feeling like a beginner again, which is a welcome feeling.  I know for me that when I get lulled into a sense that I’ve got answers, I know I am off track.  I am at my best when I recognize that I am a beginner, learning, not solving anything, just learning and open to the experience.  I have a much clearer sense of feeling like a beginner, which is right where I want to be, but also terrifying.  We stand on the edge of dynamic and beautiful change….

Soon she will be here and our ever growing family will be complete.

Our family dynamic is so full of the type of energy that only three young children can bring.  Each day a new everything, new horizons, new challenges.  It really is an amazing energy to behold.

Abram is really coming into his own, he is a beast.  A beast of the most beautiful sorts, he squeezes every bit from each moment.  Always going, always keeping up with his older sister and brother, it is unbelievable.  At the same time he reminds us that he is still a little boy, clinging dearly to his mom at any moment he can.  His love and passion for doing is remarkable.  It will be fascinating to see him as a big brother; at least we know his little sister will be tough.  He has a way of hitting when he means to hug…

Vivian is also transforming before our very eyes.  She is every bit a little woman.  Her emotional intelligence is off the charts.  Her ability to recognize emotions of others as well as her own is something I learn from daily.  She is sweet, warm, loving, and also developing a beautiful sense of humor as well as a willingness to push boundaries.  We are really blessed to have a wonderful angel for a daughter. 

Oscar has begun kindergarten and all of the new transformation that comes with growing more and more.  Every day he seems to learn something new, it is really beautiful to see.  He has a laser focus on Beyblades right now, which is intense to say the least.

My wife, I really don’t know how she does it all….  She is 9 months pregnant and remains an unstoppable force, the anchor and foundation of my life and our family.  To say that she is remarkable doesn’t do justice to her immense strength and determination.  I am in awe of how graceful she is while doing it all.  I am fortunate enough to have my best friend as my life partner.  I couldn’t be luckier.  I can’t wait to see her with a newborn again; there is really nothing more beautiful. 

Turning 6

9/9/13

In the darkest dark of the early morning.

When even the silence is silent.

Comes the pitter patter of almost running feet, our oldest treasure is on the move.

His sleep is over, no more need to rest.

I look over to check the clock – 5:04.

Intense is one way to describe him….

An intense burning flame passionately consuming all it comes into contact with.

Spend a moment with him and soon you’ll be swept up in his journey, chasing his never ending dreams.

He has a relentless spirit to do, be, experience.

His love for life – amazing.

I don’t know if I truly lived a single day before he was born.

I’ve been gasping with the most beautiful fatigue ever since.

Ever since I learned that miracles are real,

that angels do exist,

that love truly knows no bounds,

ever since I learned what it means to be willing to do anything for someone else.

Ever since I learned that grace means receiving something you could have never deserved.

Son, as you turn 6 I want to thank you.

Thank you for teaching me.

It is my life’s honor to bear witness to your flight…

The Winds of change....

The winds of change are slowly beginning to blow more and more.
Our miracles count three, soon to be four.

Anxiously we wait, it could be any day.
Another angel, on her way.

Abram - Always Eating

Back in the game..

The Apples of my eye....